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Monday, May 26, 2008

(nothing to do with dear…jus wanna some place to note this date down)

It came all so sudden to mi….cause the day before, my mother was still talking happily with my grandmother…but I was too engross in my drama show...so didn’t talk much with her…hai…if known earlier, I would have talk more…so sad…=( here goes the story…(sorry ar…got a bit long though…can dun read if u dun wan to...its jus for my keepsake…= )

In the morning even before I was awake to prepare for work…(at 5+) my maid (should be as usual) would call grandmother up to go to the toilet. This is perhaps something they have discussed between them. (who the hack would call someone up to go toilet so early in the morning…) knowing that my maid is selfish…there is possibility that she call my grandmother up for her own convenience of her time as by the time my grandmother wakes up to go toilet she do not the ample time to ci hou her.. y need to ci hou my grandmother..?? > Its because my grandmother have jus fallen down a month ago and have difficulties walking even with the help of the walking stick, thus needed someone to “bring” her around the house. Ok enough of explaining…back to the story…hmm…where was i...??

Ya…bring my grandmother to the toilet…as told by my maid this is the last words my grandmother said before she left…” now ming hao is having holiday, think I shall go to my daughter place to stay for 2 days or so” and off she went to the toilet. While in the toilet, my grandmother was complaining that she is getting dizzy… my maid tried to massage her and make her stand…but the next min... *pak* she fainted and was lying on my maid…urine were all coming out…my maid then starting shouting for my mother…we all heard the screaming but did not wake up at the first min...i even tot my maid was mad screaming till lik that…when I try to hear properly...i heard my mother’s anxious voice which suddenly woke mi up…then I had a feeling that something bad is gonna happen…I rushed out of my room and to the toilet(that’s where the sound came from)…I saw my grandmother lying unconsciously on my maid… my father rushed out too and straight away carry my grandmother to her bed…her urine dripping all over the floor while on the way to my room… by the time…we try to wake my grandmother up, my mother and my maid trying to massage her body and all…we were all frighten but my grandmother jus lying on the bed panting very hard…seems lik she is gashing for oxygen…I called out to my grandmother “breathe slowly breathe slowly…relax relax….” Seeing her trying to relax and breathing slowly…I tot she’s okie already…haiz…sad to say…no…she started to clench her fist and she seems so much in pain…my father calling on the phone for my aunt in the living room…I suggested to call the ambulance (though I know my grandmother dun lik to go to the hospital…but its an emergency…right…???) at first my mother asked my grandmother for permission…my grandmother then started to look unhappy…but seeing my grandmother being in such difficulties…my mother finally asked mi to call 995…(first time calling 995…got a bit dunno what to do ar…) so I called..”995” after I heard the person on the other side of the phone…I started crying…”hello..my grandmother has jus fainted and is now panting very heavily” the person asked for my address and said to rush here in 5 mins…by this time my grand mother is still panting very heavily and started to look pale…the 5 mins wait was the longest 5 mins I ever waited…my mother even tried to do CPR to my grandmother…pressing on her chest…OMG...i stopped my mother…her bone so fragile…we dunno know to press later any how press then bone break how…more jia lat lei… (btw…this whole incident was jus 15 mins)

Finally the paramedics have arrived…we explained the whole process to them while they doin their work…(all these while my grandmother is looking at mi…she dote mi a lot…)then they put my grandmother on the stretcher and off they went to the hospital with my mother accompanying them….this is the last time I see my grandmother alive…we were still at home packing my grandmother items lik her medicine and stuff lik that…(my mother call us to bring one…say the doctor needs it…) shortly after, we also left the house…in less then 5 mins my mother reach NUH already…(whao…that’s fast…) on the way…I called my aunt to go to NUH…I oso called some of my cousin to inform them the news…meanwhile…we oso reach NUH…(first to reach…but no use…oso cannot see my grandmother…haiz…) we went in and saw my mother talking to the doctor…lik one chicken and duck lik that…but he doctor very solemn…seems quite serious… I heard the doctor say…”her heart had stopped…now we have use some medicine to ci ji her heart see still can not…cause when she reach NUH, her heart had already stopped twice…” straight away i broke into tears…I msg dear to tell him the news…he tot it wasn’t so serious so he joke about it…I got angry and so he knew its for real and he started to console mi…I cooled down and have relaxed a bit…right after putting down the phone…da ge called… ”how’s ah mah now…???” “ah mah heart had stopped…now the doctor use some medicine to ci ji her heart see still can not…” “huh…really not..so serious…” “ya la…the doctor say her heart had already stopped twice in the ambulance le…when reach NUH her heart already stopped liao…” “WHAT…!!! I come down now…” the ambulance chiong the traffic lights lor…drive until very fast my mother said…haiz…within 5 mins da ge reach the hospital too…then my aunt…(all look very serious and tired…cause jus wake up from shock)…oh ya and my father he went back to take my grandmother’s IC…> such an important thing oso can forget…

We waited till around 6.15 when the nurse came to us…she calls us to go to the waiting room to wait for the doctor…it was a long long long 10 mins wait…slowly…my uncle…other cousins came…(still got 3 have not reached yet…) er ge was on an island patrolling…some more the place no reception…sianz…cannot contact…..we try calling his gf see she got ban fa contact er ge not as they work in the same place….

The doctor came in with a nurse…everyone in the room went mute…listening attentively to the doctor… “We have tried to use medical to ci ji her heart…done what we could but she still do not have any respond… so we have pronounced her died at 6.15am. u can see her when she is being pushed into another room…the nurse will then inform u…tml morning she will be brought to SGH…” (same script as what the dramas usually show) everyone cried…even da ge cried…everyone could not accept the truth… my mother keep saying wanting to bring her home…she dun wan my ah mah to go into the fridge thing…(cause my grandmother is scared of cold…) the doctor and nurses keep saying is part of the procedure and its one of the Singapore’s law… so its impossible for my grandmother to be brought home…both keeping refusing and lastly….my mother give up…she say as long as she will not be ”cut open” then she allow…so with the assurance of the doctor that usually there wun be any on the elderly my mother finally go with the law…but keep saying it’s her fault for calling the ambulance…(wtf…nv call we oso dunno how to do CPR…oso dunno how to save her…this one oso not normal faint lei….she panting till so hard…how can dun call 995…call…got chance of living…no call…ZERO chance of living lor…lik that think everyone will blame her la…got call at least know we did our best to save her liao lor…stupid lei…dunno what she thinking oso… hai…)

Then we went to see my grandmother for the last time…(actually can see for another 1 – 2 hours or so…quite long…) by this time…everyone came…all except er ge…finally able to contact him liao…but not able to contact on time…he also cried upon hearing that ah mah has passed away….(at first we only tell his gf that some thing have happen to ah mah…did not fill in any details) adults start talking bout the funeral and thing lik that…me…jus keep looking at ah mah and crying bitterly…

Hai…then for the next seven days…(the funeral is a week) we are at the wake with dear accompanying mi…we had cryings and also laughters…wun be able to forget these days…fun but also sad… bought ah mah a set of moshi moshi items to let her wear…(necklance…ring…braclet…earrings…) share with sis..

Bye..!!! ah mah…Love and miss u forever…(gone on sun 1 jun 08 11.55pm)

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